they killed me.

my problem is, when i truly love someone,
i mean truly love them,
lover or friend,
i may let my heart open to them to get them inside me.
i give them a part of me that i would never give to anyone else.
i trust them with all my heart
because i have trust issue where
i trust no one, except them.
i open up my heart that only them can hurt me.
i literally hand them the razor and a map
of where to cut deepest and most painfully
on my heart and my soul.

i hand them the razor and a map
luckily, they found the exact place where to cut.


and
i am bleeding like hell.


and
now



what should i do to take back the razor from them?
by ditching them.






slowly and peacefully.




it's okay.
i will remember u.


but then,
u came to me
like everything's just fine.



and here i am,
gives u another hello.

but i will never forget
what u have done.




because i deserve peace.
i want to be kind to people.
because i know, each one of u carrying a big problem.


i dont want to give any shit to them.
be nice to me,
i will be nice to u in return.




never make me regret.











fin.